Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Life goes on...

But it still hurts. Thank you for your thoughts, prayers, e mails, and kind words.
The funeral was beautiful on Sunday. The most heartfelt part was when Carol's 2 sisters and one brother shared about what a wonderful sister she was. She gave without expecting anything in return. They also reflected on their childhood together, and how fun, loving and caring she was even as a young girl.
Carol's brother spoke that there will be no more "What If's"! He said he had suffered too from depression in his adult life, and Carol had an organ that was sick and dying... It was her brain. She couldn't cope with the pressures of this life. Not excusing it, but trying to understand it. Carol's mother died of cancer at this same time a year ago.
In time I'm going to do a scrapbook page in memory of Carol and remembering what a wonderful friend she was to me over the years.
Hug a friend today.



Jeanne said...

It's sounds as though you had a wonderful opportunity to really remember her life. Depression is really insidious and it appears from what you've shared, that while she was truly giving and lovely on the outside, she may have been covering up a lot of pain and hurt on the inside.

I really appreciate your closing sentence...hug a friend today. I'm sending you cyber hugs!

Jenn Embry said...

I am so sorry you are going through this right now. It is never easy to lose a loved one, but even worse when it is to suicide. Sending prayers and hugs your way.